Here am I, after a loooong blogging hiatus! It's hard to conciliate the hectic life of med school with blogging, especially now that exams are quickly approaching (my first one is next Tuesday!).
However, after a very turbulent year, I think it's good for me to reminisce and reflect about what went well and what could have gone better!
This year was a very tough one, emotionally.
I thought I had lost my group of high school buddies. We stopped hanging out for a while, and even though that made me feel very sad and replaced, I think it was necessary. High school is a time when a part of you is defined by the group you're in, or at least, that's how I felt; now that we're all in different colleges, we had to figure ourselves out on our own. We had a reunion dinner last week and it was completely fascinating to meet those lovely people, flaws and all, and to know more about who they're growing up to be.
I was broken up with for the first time - he was my first love, my first kiss, my first everything. It was very recent and I'm still recovering, but now I know that I have to love myself alone before I love anyone else.
With all these losses (but also gains), I feel like I've grown a lot emotionally. Even though I give all of me to people, sometimes, they can't give it back the way I expect them to. And now I can accept it.
Now, on a happier note, I will share the best things that have happened to me this year!
- The friends who were always there - my best friends. There are two girls in this world who have stuck with me through thick and thin this year. They have taught me the importance of being INTENTIONAL regarding friendship! Even though we don't spend as much time together as we did before college, we do our best to schedule walks and lunches. Friendships don't mantain themselves on their own, they take a lot of hard work, but it's definitely worth it.
- The two new best friends I made at college. These girls are a huge blessing to me. It's been amazing to get to know them better and to do life with them, through Harry Potter marathons, vegan meals and coffee shop tours. They have really beautiful hearts and the potential to be world-changing.
- My college class. Wow. We've only been together since September, but the amount of inside jokes is already very high. I cherish very much the lunchtimes we spend talking about books, movies, or even deep conversations about life. When I had my bad break-up they were so supportive and kept me going despite how heartbroken I felt.
- Med school. I am PASSIONATE about what I'm studying, and I'm very excited and eager to become a doctor!
- Visiting New York City. It was my first time outside of Europe, and NYC really is the city of dreams. I took memories from there that I will never forget.
Well, let's hope 2016 brings more adventures! I will definitely work on myself a lot.
I hope you all have a great new year!
lots of love,
Mariana
